Road Ratt
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It turns out that I have been recovering from brain inflammation. Years of stress caused inflammation to build up in my body, including my brain. In early 2019 it became bad enough that I lost my abilities. Covid only made it worse. I just recently found out about all of this through doing some searching online. I am now working on eating foods that will help me recover, as I find out what they are. Learning a lot in a very short time.
It turns out that brain inflammation can cause derealization/depersonalization disorder. And I have it badly. I understand that it will go away the more I finish recovering. So I will get through it in the end.
I haven't been able to be myself for almost 5 years now. My memory is nearly as good as it ever was though. Which is a great sign. I am still not fully recovered. Not sure how many more months until I am.
I am glad that I have my senses back, mostly. But I am still left with things that are out of my control. I can't feel much of anything emotionally. But when I do, it may be overwhelming at times. Every tv show that I watch, every movie that I watch, I see in a new way that I have never seen them before. I wish I could explain it better, but I can't. I can't watch commercials, at all. I mute them always. They are either too stupid, too manipulative, or they just straight up lie to you. I can't watch that crap. I am never hungry. I can go all day without eating before I think I feel like I need to eat. I do eat everyday regularly though. My communication skills are still very low. I am sure there are other things I am forgetting. I will post them later when I can.
I am going to make a doctor appointment and have them make sure nothing is causing this. As long as nothing is, I will eventually recover. It will just take more time. So I just wait some more...
It turns out that brain inflammation can cause derealization/depersonalization disorder. And I have it badly. I understand that it will go away the more I finish recovering. So I will get through it in the end.
I haven't been able to be myself for almost 5 years now. My memory is nearly as good as it ever was though. Which is a great sign. I am still not fully recovered. Not sure how many more months until I am.
I am glad that I have my senses back, mostly. But I am still left with things that are out of my control. I can't feel much of anything emotionally. But when I do, it may be overwhelming at times. Every tv show that I watch, every movie that I watch, I see in a new way that I have never seen them before. I wish I could explain it better, but I can't. I can't watch commercials, at all. I mute them always. They are either too stupid, too manipulative, or they just straight up lie to you. I can't watch that crap. I am never hungry. I can go all day without eating before I think I feel like I need to eat. I do eat everyday regularly though. My communication skills are still very low. I am sure there are other things I am forgetting. I will post them later when I can.
I am going to make a doctor appointment and have them make sure nothing is causing this. As long as nothing is, I will eventually recover. It will just take more time. So I just wait some more...
