"I had a lot of bad examples from the people I did hang out with," Bonzi says. "I'm not saying they're bad people. Like Rasheed Wallace. Rasheed's a great guy. He's one of my best friends in the world, but I can't do the same thing Rasheed's doing. I can't do the same stuff J.R. Rider was doing, because they were established, max-contract guys. I came into the game and I was like, 'I'm hanging with them.' If they come in at five minutes until 12, I was walking in at 11:55 like them.
"This is a million-dollar job. Nobody's going to pay a million dollars to a butthole. I didn't embrace that whole theory. I was thinking, 'I've got talent. I'm going to stay here forever.' Then after I wasn't playing anymore, it was like, 'Wow, I'm not playing.' It really hit me.
"I'm older now, and I can see things that I wish I would've done so differently back then. I hate that I got technical fouls. I hate that I did stuff like that. I'm trying to think how I can word this. I just wish I wasn't so ..."