Something-To-Say
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I've made 4, but the one that sticks out big time in my mind is the latest one. Summer after freshman year, I moved from Lincoln, NE to here in Scottsdale AZ. It's burning on my mind right now since graduation is here. I don't really have any strong friends here in AZ, and I had really good ones in Nebraska. The move was both bad and good. One the good side, I'd've never worked out and I'd be a stick figure. Also I'd never have gotten into basketball, never get as exposed to different cultures like I have now. On the bad side, obviously I'm missing my friends really bad now, there was a girl who I liked a lot and I think she liked me to an extent, but I wasn't good at talking to girls at all, something I've improved at a little. It's just ripping me apart to think of Nebraska, I can still see streets that I traveled down, the Amigos restaurant that I ate at with my friends, just about everything. And now it's Arizona, where I just know I don't belong, I'm not that great of friends with anyone in my senior class, and those that I like are going to other Universities so it doesn't matter.I wish I could just go back to Nebraska for a week and just walk around during school days, maybe follow around some of my old friends, who I'm sure are different, I know that 1 of them is in jail, 1 is dead, and 1 turned emo from what I hear, but I still want to go back. What I really want more than anything is to go back in time with the physical and mental condition I'm in now and go back to when I first moved to Lincoln when I was 11. I hate thinking about Nebraska because I puts me in the state I'm in at this very moment, my chest is somewhat constricted, I know the move was for the best but I long to go back but I can't and I know it's best not to. I hate having feelings...
