Re: Random Thought Thread
I don't know how, but the eraser thing seems to be working. It's still really unsightly though.</p>
Man, I'm really struggling with everything here. On the one hand I love the socializing, freedom, etc, but once you get a taste of something, it's kind of hard to let it go. It's so easy to forget your purpose in this place, and that's exactly what seems to be happening to me. I'm not an organized person by nature so it's catching up to me. I feel as if I'm pretty much accomplishing nothing on an educational level, and it's as if this place is just a basis for me to increase my social life, which I hate. One of my friends was drunk yesterday and had sex with a random guy, andI woke up this morning with this embarrasing and massive hickey and we both talked to each other and it just kind of hit us that we're being idiots. This entire month has been like an extended party, and school's just seemed like a secondary thing, which is exactly what I feared would happen. I'm doing exactly what I promised my parents I wouldn't, and I feel guilty as fuck about it. This isn't what I came for.</p>
I'm more worriedfor my roomate though. We're really tight, but dude NEVER, ever studies anything, and skips most of his classes. Even today he went down to another University to party and stuff when he JUST partied last night withus at the club we went to. I'm not down for partying everyday, but he'll party whenever. In fact,him and my other friendspartied on a Wednesday this week as well.The thing that worries me is that he doesn't seem to care at all. I spend a couple of hours in the library on weekdays, and to be honest, it feels good, but even then I'm still behind on things. He hasn't studied since he got here, and I don't want him to fail so I tell him to watch out, and he keeps studying less and less. I don't want to be kicked out of Uni, I'm paranoid as fuck nowadays, about everything. I'm paranoid about drinking (since my floor leader saved my ass a lot of times already), I'm paranoid about school work, and I'm just paranoid about the direction I'm going in general. Fuck, man. I needed to get that out in writing, lol.</p>