The true essence of being a Christian is that all are fallen with sin and fall short of being able to even be in God's presence, so that there seems to be no way to escape damnnation and eternal separation from God. He is so holy that a white lie is the same as mass murder is the same as diahonoring a parent in invalidating you of any hope of gaining eternal life on your own merit. It is only through the sacrifice that Jesus, the only begotten Son of God, made on your behalf, without you knowing or wanting him to, that you are able to be redeemed and enter God's presence at the end of mortal life.
I would recommend that, if interested, at your leisure read (can easily be found online) Romans 3:23, Romans 6:23, John 3:3, john 14:6, romans 10:9-11, 2 corinthians 5:15 And revelation 3:20. read them a couple or few times. Each time ask "what does this mean to me?"
At the end of the day, Christianity is about Christ and your relationship with the God of the Universe. If that's mumbo jumbo to you or on par with talking about the Flying Spaghetti Monster, that's your decision. Don't rely on me or any other Christian (And for goodness's sakes, not a politician) to be a substitute for how a Christian should live. And remember that it's generally the silent majority that are attempting to follow Christ's teachings about loving God with one's whole heart soul and strength and loving one's neighbors, and not the attention-starved making news, that are likely attempting to model it as best we unglorified souls can.