Road Ratt
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Over the last few months I have been sleeping mostly well. Which has helped me to recover more, as well as regain some mental energy that I have been lacking for too long now. What I have been going through has been mentally draining to the hilt. If I ran out of energy, that was it, time for a nap, no matter the time of day.
The 7 day, near or just above 100 degree, heatwave we had at the beginning of August. It made me regress in my progress. By day 4 I had lost my abilities, again. My equilibrium was off, my ability to communicate well, etc. . Of course, every part of my day was affected. It's difficult to function when you are in this state. It is a bit scary as well. Not being able to do things as well as usual. Especially communicating.
Yesterday I had a major autistic burnout. Stress from this month finally took it's toll. But the trigger itself was a friend of mine in Texas. He told me that he was on like day 3 of eating protein powder because he is literally out of food. In my condition, and with my level of empathy my heart just dropped through the floor. I just lost it not long after he informed me of his situation. My brother drove me to Fred Meyer's to get a card for him. I put $100 in it, and we put it in a mailbox at the post office yesterday. I have no way of using a money transfer app. So it was the only way for me to help. I spent today chatting with him to help distract him from his hunger. He left just a bit ago to go lay down for the evening. He gets a small amount of food stamps tomorrow. Which should help him get by until my card arrives.
Before my dad died in 2013. He would come visit me every month. At this time he lived with his sister. Sometimes he would tell me that he had been eating nothing but cereal for a week. Every single time I would give him $40-60 and tell him not to worry about paying me back. I have never been a person that can watch someone struggle with hunger, or having to eat the same thing just to keep from going hungry.
The autistic burnout actually helped me. It is sort of a release valve, extreme release valve. You sort of become a puddle of blubbering mess. It's not a pretty sight. But, it actually helps you to release stress from your body. Hours afterwards, I felt much calmer and have stayed that way since. I am not back to where I was before this month began. But with no more lengthy temps near 100 this summer, I will get back to where I was again fairly soon.
I thought I would post this so that everyone that I haven't been able to reply to will understand that I may not have been able to at the time.
Ah well, crap happens whether you are human or autistic. A little joke of mine. Yeah, I know, very little.
The 7 day, near or just above 100 degree, heatwave we had at the beginning of August. It made me regress in my progress. By day 4 I had lost my abilities, again. My equilibrium was off, my ability to communicate well, etc. . Of course, every part of my day was affected. It's difficult to function when you are in this state. It is a bit scary as well. Not being able to do things as well as usual. Especially communicating.
Yesterday I had a major autistic burnout. Stress from this month finally took it's toll. But the trigger itself was a friend of mine in Texas. He told me that he was on like day 3 of eating protein powder because he is literally out of food. In my condition, and with my level of empathy my heart just dropped through the floor. I just lost it not long after he informed me of his situation. My brother drove me to Fred Meyer's to get a card for him. I put $100 in it, and we put it in a mailbox at the post office yesterday. I have no way of using a money transfer app. So it was the only way for me to help. I spent today chatting with him to help distract him from his hunger. He left just a bit ago to go lay down for the evening. He gets a small amount of food stamps tomorrow. Which should help him get by until my card arrives.
Before my dad died in 2013. He would come visit me every month. At this time he lived with his sister. Sometimes he would tell me that he had been eating nothing but cereal for a week. Every single time I would give him $40-60 and tell him not to worry about paying me back. I have never been a person that can watch someone struggle with hunger, or having to eat the same thing just to keep from going hungry.
The autistic burnout actually helped me. It is sort of a release valve, extreme release valve. You sort of become a puddle of blubbering mess. It's not a pretty sight. But, it actually helps you to release stress from your body. Hours afterwards, I felt much calmer and have stayed that way since. I am not back to where I was before this month began. But with no more lengthy temps near 100 this summer, I will get back to where I was again fairly soon.
I thought I would post this so that everyone that I haven't been able to reply to will understand that I may not have been able to at the time.
Ah well, crap happens whether you are human or autistic. A little joke of mine. Yeah, I know, very little.
