I have NEVER been more stressed out over a Draft , than I have been for this one. Not even close. And it's because my favorite all time Blazer is being bandied about on National Radio, and thrown to the wolves in this Forum. My heart actually is struggling to deal with this. I've become physically disturbed by what i hear and read.
I get it. I obviously put too much stock into being a fan. But it's a labor of love. It's my escape from the world. I love life in general, but because of the meanness that has taken hold in our society, and our country , whether it be politics, or driving, or even going to the freakin' grocery store , i can't turn it off. Because i'm not wealthy enough to insulate myself from it.
Then i come in here , because i want to be excited about the possibilities of adding around this amazing Blazer, and way more than i thought want to just throw him to the curb for some young, wet behind the ears, dude , who doesn't know what it means to have talent. And how hard the work he is going to have to put in , to even sniff the success Dame has accomplished in Portland.
It's more than just the Blazers, or Dame. It's the decline of America. The "Flavor of the moment" that permeates our very existence here. No one seems to care about loyalty. Companies don't, teams don't, couples don't, fans don't .
Something that should be fun has become like everything else here. Polarizing, a battle, a fight, WAR. "It hurts my heart" is a slogan my mom, who battled her demons all through her life due to abuses growing up, and bad decisions as an adult , use to say. Because it really does hurt.
I took a hiatus from this forum during the season. Even though the season was tough, Dame ,until he was shut down, Again! provided amazing memories i will never forget. My daughter and i were at the Houston game where he scored 71. I will never forget it, or the feeling before the game. It was electric. He has given me, as a Blazer fan, more great memories than i can count. I've cried more tears of happiness because of his game heroics, time and time again.
I don't want his Era to end. I know it will when he retires. But it's entirely to soon to end his era as a Blazer.
I'm excited for this Draft. TO BE OVER!